disappearance issues & such

I know that I have been generally inactive this season. I've been experiencing some personal issues. But now I feel as if I am able to continue again. I've been studying photos in the meantime and I'm ready to experiment some more with lighting. and also... i'm thinking about buying a softbox ... and photoshop? haha It seems I may be a little late with that purchase, so perhaps i'll just master this program that I have,... to save myself hundreds of dollars. The modeling competition is not over just yet. There are two girls left. One unfortunately was pulled from the competition by her parents, but parents are just trying to do whats best for their kids right? I'm hoping that this year I am going to be able to make a job change. Possibly work 3rd shift and so that way i'll be free during the day... EVERY DAY. And I honestly think that this year, will be the year that I make it.